#living with bpd

[support]

Everything okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. There are many support services that are here to help. For 24/7 peer support and other resources, message KokoBot on Tumblr.

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or dial 988 or (en Español)

The Trevor Project (LGBT crisis intervention) or dial 1-866-488-7386

Trans Lifeline or dial 1-877-565-8860 (en Español)

The National Domestic Violence Hotline or 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)

Rape Abuse & Incest National Network or 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

S.A.F.E. Alternatives for Stopping Self Abuse or 1–800-DONT-CUT (366–8288)

National Eating Disorders Association

If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find resources for your country.

For more resources, please visit our Counseling & Prevention Resources page for a list of services that may be able to help.

[maybe-an-aspd-angel]

[neurodivergenttales]

I only operate in extremes

I can’t just be a bit sad, instead I’m soul crushingly miserable

I can’t just be happy, instead I’m completely elated

I can’t eat normally, instead I’m either binging or restricting

I can’t love normally, instead I’m either obsessed or want nothing to do with the person

I can’t just be bored, instead I have to fill the void with any method of self destruction available to me so that I don’t have to feel the boredom

[worthless-mess]

[azzehkarla]

I don’t want people to be attracted to me, I want people to be perplexed by me. I want people to look at me and think “what the fuck is going on with that”

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

i want to completely disappear and start over. i want to just walk out the door and no one will ever see me again.

[borderline-gays-club]

[borderline-brat]

Everytime I start to think things are getting better, I’m reminded by the overwhelming feeling of hopelessness.

[maybe-an-aspd-angel]

[neurodivergenttales]

How much longer can I keep telling myself 'just get through the next hour/day/week/month'?

I want to live not just survive from one moment to the next, always scared that my mood is going to drop even further, never feeling safe in my own skin or head

[worthless-mess]

I may not be a ten but at least you won’t have to meet my dad

[wanitabulan]

Pada dirimu itu, yang menyala; hiduplah.

Aku menyaksikan siaran televisi yang memperlihatkan diriku dalam berbagai versi. Ingin rasanya ku ajak main diriku yang umur sembilan, atau menggenggam tangan diriku di umur limabelas, atau menjadi teman baik diriku di umur duapuluh tiga.

Sementara menyaksikan siaran itu, aku belajar sesuatu yang paling sulit; memaafkan dan berterimakasih atas perjalananku.

Diriku yang muda itu sungguh pemarah! Tapi ia kuat, ia berhati besar. Ia membuatku ingin hidup lebih baik; untuknya.

Ia ingin aku istirahat yang cukup, menikmati makananku, pergi jalan-jalan, berteman, dan membuka hatinya ketika seseorang menunjukkan cintanya.

Ia ingin api yang menyala-nyala dalam diriku hidup, agar tubuh dan jiwaku terus hidup. Dalam kata lain; diriku menginginkanku hidup, memilih hidup dan terus hidup.

Melinda Risa

Bintaro, 25 Oktober 2024 10:40 AM

[niraa3]

I tried to reach out to people when I felt alone and disappointed and had suicidal tendencies but there was no one to care, no one was here, and it was only me who tried to feel others' feelings and problems…

WHO CARE????

[bpd-thefallen]

I really hate how needy I am and how much it requires for me to feel loved by another person. They don’t understand it and they never will. Sometimes it makes me feel more alone to be with others compared to when I am actually alone.

[azzehkarla]

one mans "she belongs in a psych ward" is another mans "she’s all i ever wanted"..🥺

[geceninbaligi]

Before sleep I need to wait until the moment I'm completely exhausted and can't keep my eyes open. So I don't have to deal with being alone with my thoughts.